the desire to create

I have been toying with the idea of developing a back story for one of my designs. I sort of have an idea of her personality which I portray through the drawings of her. I feel this is somewhat necessary to create an emotive piece.
But some people take it further than that and really come up with a narrative for their characters. This isn't something I have ever had interested in. Until now. I have a character that I really like. Her design, I think, is rather unique and I enjoy drawing her. If I so desired, I could create a story for her, with other characters, in a unique setting and start a comic. However, this would take a lot of time and planning. And some ability to tell a story through art. I'm not sure if I have any of these things.
So I likely will do nothing. But I'll keep drawing her, even if I'm the only one who knows what she's thinking.

confusing struggle

I have been drawing and painting for as long as I can remember and it has always been an important feature in my life. I never wanted to make it my career, but it's something that I still take pretty seriously.

But after all this time, I still don't feel comfortable with my art. I don't feel confident in my skills. And I'm unsure about why I even want to draw.  I don't really do it to make a statement, I don't really have any creative ideas, and I'm not trying to achieve realism or anything. The closest thing I can think of to explain my motivation is that...I just want to make pretty things. I just want to draw things that are nice to look at.

But if that's the case, why do I take it so seriously? I wish I could just have more fun with it, and not worry so much about how it's going to turn out, what people are going to think of it, or whether it conveys my "style" properly.

I feel like I would enjoy art more and be more inspired if I wasn't so concerned with these trivial things.